"He has all these things he wants to ask her like why they have never got together, they'd be great together, a team, a pair, Dex and Em, Em and Dex, everybody says so. He is taken aback by the sudden rush of love he feels for Emma, and he decides to get in a cab to Earls Court and tell her how great she is, how he really, really loves her and how sexy she is if only she knew it and why not just do it, to see what happens, and if none of that works, even if they just sit up and talk, at least it will be better than being alone tonight. Whatever happens, he mustn't be alone..."

If it was naive then I'm glad I wasn't wise,

cos I'd happily have stayed forever looking into your eyes

and yeah, we are young so it's harder to know

if we've found a true love, even if we've let it go.
but i suppose time does change us and time is what makes us:
we'll learn, we'll grow and different things we shall admire
but somethings never die out - we still have our desires.
i'll just wait and then one day there will be no more pain
so if in time i trust, well then, in time, i'll see those eyes again.

a thought

So I just went cinema [Orange Wednesday you get me] to see 

The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel.

It was a good film, actually. It's basically about growing old, dreams, regrets and generally lovin life - with quite a few racist laughs inbeetween. 

I got excited even more about seeing it because Professor McGonagall is in it [playing someone else, jeez]. She's actually SO different from McGonagall - obvs I know she's an actress and so it's not surprising that she can shape-shift like this (without pollyjuice potion), but I'll forever know her as McGonagall and not this racist cripple.

It's cool Professor, I shall not take your title away from you. <3

Anyway, a phrase said throughout the film by the optimistic hotel-owner (and previous Slumdog Millionaire) Sonny, was:

"Everything will be alright in the end. If it's not alright, then it's not the end."

I like this quote.

I wonder if this same quote got him through the slums.. the end turned out alright for him! Caj win a million pounds.. yeah, well in Ruislip we're lucky to win a voucher for the Chimes. Even then it may only be an exciting 3% off at JD sports, (if you're lucky). And well, perhaps that is the 'end' destined for all Ruislip-ians. Get excited.

On a serious level though, the quote is good. It's hopeful. At the end of the day, life is what you make it (so let's make it rock, lol yeah jokes) I suppose - and everyone wants their life to be 'alright' at least? And surely, if your entire life really is the epitome of disastrous, then for it to be alright in the end may be worth it, something to look forward to I suppose - if it's worth it that is.

But then this also requires patience.

I'd like to apply this quote to my life. What with all these shitty A-Levels, relationships, 17 year old hormones, not to mention a cat who sometimes decides to spontaneously excrete on the kitchen floor.. surely I'll be cut some slack soon.

Surely it's all worth something - be it a life lesson or life-changing, or perhaps just learning to use a mop effectively and have a good sense of smell.

I hope it will be alright in the end. 

And if my current idea of when the "end" is and what "alright" will be is wrong, then I guess I have something else exciting to look forward to.

For now though, I shall continue my wishful naive thinking, and hope the "end" will come in all it's glorious adequacy of "alright"-ness.

Mind The Gap

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The First Day

So last night I stayed at my friend Ciara's, and today I went to school. For one lesson. Then did a bit of work. Left, got my hair cut, and went home. Woo.

It was nice, because it seemed that today was the first day (well there may have been a similar day a few weeks ago but it sounds more significant and important if I say today was the first) where everyone is just a lil bit happier because there are some signs of summer appearing... eg, sun, that's kind of a good start.

I went to the lido with my sister soon after getting home and since I am living this crazy yolo lifestyle these days I ended up a bit tipsy.

I edited the photo too to enhance how crazy it was, shit went down when I found a dead fly/miggie-annoying-fuck-thing in my wine. But it's okay cos my sister swiftly got it out with her nail, and then I worried there would be fly/miggie-annoying-fuck-thing poo in it, and the poo that it probably ate before it decided to die in my glass. Haha, gutted bitch.

Don't have that much more to say tonight, except that I hope all your spirits remain high because being around moody people 24/7 is shit. Even though I am one of them hehehe.

Mind The Gap;

iPodge

YOLO

Woo, so I decided to change my layout - because that's how bored I am. And how much I'm trying to avoid work. Waa.

So something I'd like to rant about is this "YOLO". I found out last night that it actually came from a song - am I 454533 years late on this?

But yeah, it seems YOLO is taking over or perhaps becoming an excuse to either fuck everything up, or embrace it. I suppose you could look at it in 2 ways..

Fuck it man YOLO. Let's waste 5 years of our lives pretending to work our arses off at sixth form and uni knowing there'll be no jobs waiting for us. Let's waste 5 years being drunk and partying and procrastinating essay upon essay upon essay because we've got something more important better to do, change our minds on our career paths 45452454 times and still don't have a clue where we're headed - and in the end, have a fat loan to pay off with nothing to show for it.. but whatever, cos we had fun. Let's fuck about and take risks. Fall in love and never see it through, say YES. Go bungee jumping and do everything your parents are keeping you from. Be a fucking idiot, but have a good time.

or;

YOLO. So let's not fuck this up. Let's actually appreciate what we've got, because we wont get this again. "Don't wait cos right now is the oldest you've ever been and the youngest you'll ever be." Tell our family and friends how much we love them and see the world. Loosing ourselves but not loosing touch with reality. Settle down, be happy. Wind up a boring but sensible person, and die. And never come back cos YOLO.

Okay I've just looked up the song YOLO came from. I bet Drake didn't think that much into what YOLO means. Probably cos he's not that gay.

Mind The Gap;

iPodge

x

"That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But, it is the same with any life. Imagine one selected day struck out of it, and think how different its course would have been. Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day." 

- Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

I haven't read the book, it was at the beginning in the prologue of the book I'm currently reading.

It's nice, and true.

I have so much to say but I don't know how to say it.